I’m just lazy. I’m super lazy. That’s what it is. I wrote. I just didn’t know where to go with what I wrote. DON’T JUDGE ME OKAY I AM TRYING!
I’m just lazy. I’m super lazy. That’s what it is. I wrote. I just didn’t know where to go with what I wrote. DON’T JUDGE ME OKAY I AM TRYING!
So, I didn’t write yesterday because it was voting day and I was glued to the TV all night, but TODAY I MADE GOOD GROUND! Sure, I didn’t catch up, but I came closer than I expected to get. I’m still well in reach of par!
This weekend, like last weekend, is a Figure Skating weekend. If you don’t know, I’m such a big fan of figure skating that I will absolutely stay up 28 hours because the figure skating is in Japan and it’s at 2am-8am and I have to leave at 8am to get to work at 8:30 but the free skate is at the same times the next night. I work 9-5 so I have totally watched figure skating without sound at work where my boss thinks I’m just staring into space in my cubicle. (Spoiler alert, it isn’t as good without the music, lol)
However, I’ve made up a plan! This time, the short programs are, as I suggested above, Thursday/Friday night in the early AM hours. And the Frees are in the same hours Friday/Saturday night. (I call it ‘Friday night’ even if it’s 5am Saturday morning because I haven’t been asleep yet). What I’m doing this time is getting a goodnight’s sleep and skipping the short, watching those online after work, then taking a nap (if possible) and staying up until God knows when to watch the free skates. *nods*
Japan is easily the hardest hours for figure skating live streams.
HOWEVER, between the two disciplines I’m interested in this weekend, there’s PLENTY Of opportunity to write! I can WRITE between ladies and men’s! It’s a great idea!
I’m totally gonna be caught up by Monday and probably even AHEAD of par!
How are you doing these days? GOOD LUCK!
I did so well and almost made it!!! Time ran out just before I had to stop. But hey that’s a good number of words today! Tomorrow I will catch up for sure!
I hope you guys were as successful as I was today!
I mean…. I wrote? That’s the important part!
Hope it’s all going well for you guys!
For the most part today I asked people for help deciding, “Should I do this, or this?” and then writing what I could during word sprints ran by the NaNoWriMo Word Sprints twitter. It’s very effective for me.
I still haven’t decide who the main protagonist is. So far, I have told the story from the POV of:
I’ve also introduced:
The story will be told from more than just the 5 POVs I’ve said, but only a few more. Basically, I need people from about 4 or 5 households who we see from their POV as they interact with their own household and other neighbors, because the neighbors all start speculating about each other and secrets that were never meant to see the light of day come out as possible motives, and there’s just a lot of drama coming as more people die and the community gets more and more scared.
I’ve never written from this many POVs but I’ve read plenty of books written this way, so I think it’s going to be great. However, I DO need one main protagonist. I kind of like the detective, honestly, but I worry that might get a little to Silence of the Lambs, one main character but several people’s POV, especially since the detective is a woman.
Anyways, hope you guys had a nice, productive day!
Am I off to a GREAT start? Maybe not.
Did I read 5 hours worth of studies about children who kill and ASD spectrum in kids? Maybe.
Did I write the first scene, therefore starting my journey officially? Yes, Yes I did.
I’d say it’s not as bad as it could be.
It’s that time again folks! This year’s story is one I’ve been thinking about for a while, and I’m so ready to finally write it. However, I’m still stuck in planning mode so I didn’t get any words down yet. Here’s hoping I get to it tomorrow!
My synopsis is very basic because I’m terrible at those, but it gets the information across!
Sycamore Hills is an upper middle class, family friendly gated community. Nothing out of the ordinary ever happens there. The parents go to work, the children to go school, the landscapers and handymen all have background checks, and nobody gets in or out without authorization.
And yet somehow, one pleasant summer, every few nights tragedy befalls a household. Locked doors and windows, locked gates, tall fences. None of these stop the killer from striking when the residents of Sycamore Hills least expect it.
DUN DUN DUUUUUUN!
I don’t have much for Day 1 to report otherwise, but I will pose this question to all of you guys as I did on NaNoWriMo forums, but since it’s a spoiler, I will link you there instead. You can reply to me at any of my places, Twitter, the forum, here, whatever! I just don’t want to give away the killer on DAY 1 of NaNo!
Let me know how your progress is going, and as always, follow me on Twitter for far more constant updates!
Tonight I got to experience something truly unique and special for someone born in 1991: I have never seen Friday the 13th before tonight, and I got to see it for the first time on a big screen.
I’ve mentioned previously that Theatre Dublin is doing Fright Fest this month, showing horror films on the movie screen they purchased for only the low-low price of $5 per ticket. Let me tell you guys, you think surround sound is great, but imagine surround sound in a building with theatre acoustics. Talk about amazing experiences!
Having never seen Friday the 13th before, I wasn’t sure what to expect. Amazingly, my baby sister, who I went with, has seen it, so she knew what was coming when I didn’t. I will admit, I threw popcorn during the first murder jump scare. It ended up being a pretty solid horror film. Is it up there with my favorites? No, not at all. But I feel like I enjoyed this experience more than I will the other films I’m seeing this month because, unlike everything else I’m going to see, I got to see a movie from 1980 on a big screen for the first time. Every bloody second was in HD with surround sound and it was amazing!
My only real heartbreak is that so few people came. Just as with The Shining, there were maybe twenty people total to see the movie. It did show last night as well, but I figured with so many people without power still from hurricane Michael, a lot of people would like at least the entertainment and air conditioning of seeing a movie for the low price of $5, but alas, there were less people than at The Shining. My fear is that, should this not work out, they will stop having movies at Theatre Dublin, and it’s a great experience. It’s especially rewarding to have classic movies showing. This Fright Fest isn’t the only classic movies they have. Over the summer, I remember one month was Western themed. They also show new movies, which I guess probably gets more ticket purchases since the price is about the same as at the local AMC but with FAR cheaper concessions.
My sister and I got two movie tickets, two 24oz drinks, a popcorn, and a box of candy, all for only $21. At the AMC that would easily be $50.
My only hope is that more people will come join the fun in seeing movies you would otherwise NEVER get to see on a big screen like this. On the 18th, the film they’re showing will be Psycho and as that is a favorite of mine, I CANNOT wait to see it on the big screen! The closest I ever came was on the overhead projector on a 5 foot screen during Film Analysis class in college. This is gonna be awesome!
So, citizens of Laurens County and the surrounding counties, join me on October 18th in seeing Psycho, the famous Alfred Hitchcock film, at 7pm at Theatre Dublin for the low price of only $5 a ticket. I promise you, you will not be disappointed!
I live (nearly) in Dublin, GA, and it’s a small town. We have about 16,000 people in city limits and 60K in the micropolitan area (because in Georgia, small towns are SMALL so we center around one town). We have a theatre downtown that in the past was a cinema called Martin Theatre. Now it’s called Theatre Dublin and before this year, it hosted local live events. However, in the past year, they bought a projector and screen and have been showing movies as it did before the 80s when we got a ‘real’ cinema in town.
For the month of October, they are showing various horror films (and various other Halloween flicks) for the season. Tonight, the first movie of Horror Fest was The Shining. As someone born in 1991, I never got to see The Shining on the big screen, and honestly, it was INCREDBILE! I thought it would be about $10 per ticket, but me and my sister got in for $10 total! For that price, I might see every single movie of Fright Fest just because it’s so cheap and every movie is one I like. I was already planning to see Psycho and Scream, but I think there is also Ghostbusters, Casper, Friday the 13th, IT (original), Scream, and The Rocky Horror Picture show on ACTUAL Halloween!
Rocky Horror on Halloween is THE BEST THING EVER! I’m SUPER excited for that!
Either way, if you live within driving distance of any of the showings during Fright Fest in Dublin, Georgia at Theatre Dublin, check them out! It’s a place of local history and I can only hope that these new cinema showings will help provide funding for further Dublin history!
(Also, as random as it sounds, don’t dismiss the ‘history on a pole’ display outside of Theatre Dublin. There’s a post that has a thing on it and if you press the buttons, it tells you the history of whatever you selected! I’m not shocked we got Top Small Towns with that kind of convenience!)
These days, I find myself in a bit of a funk. I’m not depressed, because I’m well aware of the symptoms of depression and I have no forms of those symptoms. I still love the things I enjoy, I still find reason to be happy, I still feel joy and sorrow and all the other emotions, and I’m basically still the picture of healthy brain chemistry. I’m blessed with that and I will never take that for granted.
That said, I’ve really been in a funk lately. I would say probably for about three months now, I’ve been feeling very ‘stuck’. I was rejected for the ONLY grad school program I was interested in that is within driving distance of where I live (I have no desire to move away), and after that I found myself in a rut. Though it’s not shocking I wasn’t accepted (the acceptance rate is only 10% at best for this program), I was really banking on that to be my ‘next step’.
I hate my job.
I do. It’s my first full-time job but also the most boring job I’ve ever held in my life. I’m a bank teller, and in a small town at a hometown bank, that means you’re decently busy on Monday and Friday and every other day of the week you spend up to an hour sitting in your station with NOTHING to do. We can’t have phones or books or anything to pass the time, and there’s only so much you can talk about with your coworkers when you are a queer democrat with no desire for a family and live in the rural south where some people still don’t let their kids read Harry Potter because of the witchcraft. I can’t leave my station except at lunch and to go to the bathroom, and even that I have to be sure there are two other tellers out front or else you CANNOT go pee (legal reasons). I’m terrible at my job to boot. I suck at math, I’m somehow even bad at counting even though I try SO HARD to go slow and use the sticky-finger stuff so the bills don’t stick together, and I’m constantly worried I will be fired, because even if I hate my job, I have a crippling fear of disappointing people.
However, of ALL the stuff I’m qualified for, I live in a town where even though it isn’t a tiny town, jobs tend to not be advertised as much as, “I know someone, let’s hire them”. The only reason I got this job is because a bigger bank DID advertise, and when my dad’s banker heard I applied to another bank, he offered me a job without me having ANY qualifications for this position. The reason I took it is because it offered $11.50/hr straight out of college in a state with $7.25 minimum wage, FULLY FREE health AND dental insurance, a 401K plan, and 2 weeks paid vacation every year. And after 6 months I moved up to $12/hr, so even less of a reason to quit. I CAN’T quit this job unless I can find something in my field that offers similar pay and/or benefits.
Unless, of course, I was going to grad school.
I was really banking on grad school giving me a reason to quit my job. I hate this job. It’s an AMAZING job but I hate it. I hate the monotony and the boredom and I honestly hate the customers. The number of time old drunk guys flirt with me or hyper-conservatives praise Trump to me (I obviously won’t offer my opinion since it’s A) unprofessional, and B) I live in a state where employers don’t have to give a reason to fire you and I KNOW I’m the odd one out) and expect me to join them, or just the general shittiness of the tasks of my job, it’s all just terrible. I hate dirty ass money. Money is disgusting and I’ve been a germophobe since I was like 13 and I can’t go wash my hands 12 times a day because I can’t leave my station.
Getting rejected by grad school means I can’t justify giving up such a well-paying, AMAZING benefits job. And since I have nothing else down the pipe now that I’m not going to grad school, I just have this sinking feeling I’ll be like one of my coworkers who has been a teller for 20 goddamn years.
It’s got me in a funk so that I don’t go to the movies as often, because my free-time is so limited. And I don’t read as much because I have less free time. I don’t watch TV anymore because I got behind and can’t feel bothered to catch up. It isn’t that I don’t want to do fun stuff anymore, it’s just that I haven’t got enough free time to DO all the things I used to do, so now I spend all my free time writing.
My fiction writing is booming, but I can’t afford an agent and am terrified of self-publishing, so it’s pointless. As a result, I have literally NOTHING to look forward to anymore. I’m not unhappy in general, but I have no GOALS. I’ve spent all my life from 4 to 26 with goals in mind regarding school and college, and now that I’ve been graduated for a year and didn’t get into grad school and can’t really afford to move (or want to move) to go somewhere else I might WOULD get accepted, I’m spinning my wheels. I don’t know what I want to do with my life.
I’m stuck in a rut.
That’s why I’m not posting as many reviews, that’s why I’m not engaging as much, and that’s why I’m so distant lately. Even though I may not be depressed, I’m in a funk. I’m having a TRUE quarter-life crisis and I don’t know how to get out of it.
So please, don’t give up on my reviews or my essays. I’m trying to hard to get back into keeping up with the times, but I’m finding it so much easier to just sink everything into the last creative endeavors I have left. I’m so used to a LIFETIME of creating stuff and getting validation from teachers and professors that now that I’m stuck in the ‘real world’, I’m just spinning my wheels. I hate that I’m not working on my non-fiction writing anymore to a level I want, but it’s just so hard to care when there’s no goal in sight.
I’m not giving up on myself, so please don’t give up on me.
And if anybody else feels like this, please know you aren’t alone. I hate this. I feel so alone because there is no sympathy to be found. I’m making $12/hr straight out of college at an easy job with amazing benefits, boo-hoo. I understand why I get no sympathy here, because most people don’t have the same aspirations and goals I do. But anybody else in a similar situation, I feel sympathy for you. I feel your pain. You aren’t alone.
I’m going to be okay, and so is anybody else who is in this sort of situation.