Look at that! I had to grind out all day and then I had a spurt of inspiration for like 30 minutes at the end just before midnight, but hey! I’m getting back up!
I can do this! I know I can! You guys can, too!
I’m glad I made up for not writing yesterday. I didn’t get to par but I got up again. I need to get ahead now, though, because I still have to take off at least one day to work on this paper for one of my classes. I’m a ‘do it last minute’ kind of person when it comes to papers, but this is a really big paper so I’ll need several hours for sure to get it done.
Oh well, this was still a pretty good writing day. I just need to keep this momentum going.
I’m not even going to attempt to write. I technically have 20 words for the day because of bleed over after midnight last night in my writing, but I’m not even going to attempt.
Have a nice break, guys! Be ready to WRITE LIKE MAD tomorrow!
I didn’t have any excuse not to write much today except I slept late, I wanted to read instead of write, and Alvin and the Chipmunks was on TV so I wanted to watch that… and Parks and Recreation. Also today was Yuri On Ice day so I watched that and then had to yell at my friends that IF THE DOG DIES, I QUIT!!! Oh shit, sorry for the spoiler?
The important thing is that I’ve worked out what I’m going to do! I picked a killer and motivation and BY GOD IF IT SUCKS, IT SUCKS, BUT I’M GOING TO WRITE IT NOW!!!
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, which will suck ass, because it means less writing. It also means having to eat at 10:30am. YOU HEARD THAT RIGHT! My aunt decided we’re going to eat at 10:30am… Idk about you guys, but I can’t eat that early. When I have breakfast on days I have to get up early in the morning, I have to force down a banana and bottle of water. Most days I don’t eat before at least 1pm, so yeah. That’s gonna be fan-fucking-tastic.
Ah well, we get to go shopping tomorrow? That’s good at least.
This NaNoWriMo month is drawing to a close and I’m just staying behind. I don’t have TIME for this! Fuck!
I can’t go on with the story, not in any real way, unless I FIGURE OUT WHAT THE FUCK I’M WRITING! I needed to be building a buffer! NOT FALLING BEHIND! I KNOW that I’m going to have to take at least 2 days off from writing NaNoWriMo (probably Sunday and Monday) and I NEED TO BE AHEAD NOT BEHIND!
I’m just fucking pissed at this point. I’m not bummed, I’m angry at myself. Also I realize I’m using a lot of fucking curse words, but FUCK FUCKITY FUCK FUCK!
I spent the past TWO DAYS talking to people and thinking about it and every time I think I’ve got something, I find a reason it won’t work. I’m so fucking annoyed at myself for thinking that I could just write and it would work itself out. I’m even more annoyed it didn’t WORK that way. USUALLY I don’t plan what I’m writing! I JUST WRITE AND IT HAPPENS! I never plan what I’m writing only THIS TIME it didn’t FUCKING WORK.
And I feel bad for all the people trying to help me and not being able to because everything they suggest WONT WORK. I’m just frustrated and angry and this is driving me insane. Because I CANNOT have gotten this far and not win NaNoWriMo but I really need to go back and just re-write shit so that SOMEBODY can be the killer and have a motive that works, but I don’t have TIME this late in the month.
I need to just fucking pick a fucking killer and finish writing it with them as the killer, then go back in the fucking story and MAKE IT work.
I’m now about 90% positive that once NaNoWriMo is over I’ll never revisit this novel ever and never finish it and never even attempt to get it published.
But I’m going to fucking hit 50,000 words before December 1 rolls around, you can bet your ass on that.
Soooo yeah. It didn’t go well today. I was finally caught up… and this happened.
The problem is I DON’T HAVE A SOLID MOTIVE FOR ANY OF THE KILLERS SO I CAN’T PICK A KILLER AND I NEED A KILLER TO BE PICKED!!!
I have several ways that someone could do it, but I need a solid motivation and I cannot pick one. Going in, my motivation was that one person hated another one and this was a good opportunity to kill them, but I’ve been told that’s a little heavy handed and I agree (the motive was sexism, and there’s enough talk about sexism in the science field to make that seem a little political and pretty obvious).
My other options are all weak motives.
I’m sort of leaning towards “One of them is sick of the other taking credit for their work so they decide to off the other one but someone catches them in planning and they have to kill that person and now it’s spiraled out of control”. It’s a simple motive. Nothing to convoluted.
All my other options I’ve pretty much dismissed for being to convoluted. I don’t want as shitty of a bad guy as the villain in the last Captain America movie, that’s for sure.
What do you guys think? Does “Sick of doing all the work and sharing the credit so I planned to kill my partner but oh shit, someone else caught my planning and I panicked and killed them so now I’ve fucked up and I may have to kill other people to cover my tracks” sound reasonable?
Both those bars haven’t been green since day 7 and look! This is great news! I need to get out ahead now. I need to write 2,000 words a day at least, which can’t be too big of a hardship since the last few days I’ve written a lot each day. I need to build a buffer because I have a major research project due the 29th, so I have to count on at least 2 days of not writing much of anything there, and only the 30th left to make up whatever I have left.
Hopefully I’ll finish on the 27th and just be done already, but I need to be able to make up any ground left to 50k that isn’t done by the 27th in ONE DAY on the 30th.
We’ve got this, guys! We can all do it!
I’m finally in a groove where something is happening, so writing was easy tonight. This is genuinely about 2 hours worth of writing and look!
Last night I wrote from midnight to 1am continuing ‘yesterday’s work, but that counted for only some of this, so tonight between about 10:45 and midnight, I wrote 3,223 words.
I didn’t make it to 30,000 yet, so I’m still not caught up where I wanted to be, but do you see that Words Per Day To Finish On Time? 1,768. Easy. I can do that with no problem!
Now, it is worth mentioning that, though I finally killed someone, I still haven’t worked out who else dies and who the killer is or why they are the killer… BUT I’ve had a few people offer to help me out so HOPEFULLY I can get this sorted out soon.
How are you guys doing? Hopefully on a roll like I am!