I didn’t have any excuse not to write much today except I slept late, I wanted to read instead of write, and Alvin and the Chipmunks was on TV so I wanted to watch that… and Parks and Recreation. Also today was Yuri On Ice day so I watched that and then had to yell at my friends that IF THE DOG DIES, I QUIT!!! Oh shit, sorry for the spoiler?
The important thing is that I’ve worked out what I’m going to do! I picked a killer and motivation and BY GOD IF IT SUCKS, IT SUCKS, BUT I’M GOING TO WRITE IT NOW!!!
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, which will suck ass, because it means less writing. It also means having to eat at 10:30am. YOU HEARD THAT RIGHT! My aunt decided we’re going to eat at 10:30am… Idk about you guys, but I can’t eat that early. When I have breakfast on days I have to get up early in the morning, I have to force down a banana and bottle of water. Most days I don’t eat before at least 1pm, so yeah. That’s gonna be fan-fucking-tastic.
Ah well, we get to go shopping tomorrow? That’s good at least.
This NaNoWriMo month is drawing to a close and I’m just staying behind. I don’t have TIME for this! Fuck!
I can’t go on with the story, not in any real way, unless I FIGURE OUT WHAT THE FUCK I’M WRITING! I needed to be building a buffer! NOT FALLING BEHIND! I KNOW that I’m going to have to take at least 2 days off from writing NaNoWriMo (probably Sunday and Monday) and I NEED TO BE AHEAD NOT BEHIND!
I’m just fucking pissed at this point. I’m not bummed, I’m angry at myself. Also I realize I’m using a lot of fucking curse words, but FUCK FUCKITY FUCK FUCK!
I spent the past TWO DAYS talking to people and thinking about it and every time I think I’ve got something, I find a reason it won’t work. I’m so fucking annoyed at myself for thinking that I could just write and it would work itself out. I’m even more annoyed it didn’t WORK that way. USUALLY I don’t plan what I’m writing! I JUST WRITE AND IT HAPPENS! I never plan what I’m writing only THIS TIME it didn’t FUCKING WORK.
And I feel bad for all the people trying to help me and not being able to because everything they suggest WONT WORK. I’m just frustrated and angry and this is driving me insane. Because I CANNOT have gotten this far and not win NaNoWriMo but I really need to go back and just re-write shit so that SOMEBODY can be the killer and have a motive that works, but I don’t have TIME this late in the month.
I need to just fucking pick a fucking killer and finish writing it with them as the killer, then go back in the fucking story and MAKE IT work.
I’m now about 90% positive that once NaNoWriMo is over I’ll never revisit this novel ever and never finish it and never even attempt to get it published.
But I’m going to fucking hit 50,000 words before December 1 rolls around, you can bet your ass on that.
Soooo yeah. It didn’t go well today. I was finally caught up… and this happened.
The problem is I DON’T HAVE A SOLID MOTIVE FOR ANY OF THE KILLERS SO I CAN’T PICK A KILLER AND I NEED A KILLER TO BE PICKED!!!
I have several ways that someone could do it, but I need a solid motivation and I cannot pick one. Going in, my motivation was that one person hated another one and this was a good opportunity to kill them, but I’ve been told that’s a little heavy handed and I agree (the motive was sexism, and there’s enough talk about sexism in the science field to make that seem a little political and pretty obvious).
My other options are all weak motives.
I’m sort of leaning towards “One of them is sick of the other taking credit for their work so they decide to off the other one but someone catches them in planning and they have to kill that person and now it’s spiraled out of control”. It’s a simple motive. Nothing to convoluted.
All my other options I’ve pretty much dismissed for being to convoluted. I don’t want as shitty of a bad guy as the villain in the last Captain America movie, that’s for sure.
What do you guys think? Does “Sick of doing all the work and sharing the credit so I planned to kill my partner but oh shit, someone else caught my planning and I panicked and killed them so now I’ve fucked up and I may have to kill other people to cover my tracks” sound reasonable?
Both those bars haven’t been green since day 7 and look! This is great news! I need to get out ahead now. I need to write 2,000 words a day at least, which can’t be too big of a hardship since the last few days I’ve written a lot each day. I need to build a buffer because I have a major research project due the 29th, so I have to count on at least 2 days of not writing much of anything there, and only the 30th left to make up whatever I have left.
Hopefully I’ll finish on the 27th and just be done already, but I need to be able to make up any ground left to 50k that isn’t done by the 27th in ONE DAY on the 30th.
We’ve got this, guys! We can all do it!
I’m finally in a groove where something is happening, so writing was easy tonight. This is genuinely about 2 hours worth of writing and look!
Last night I wrote from midnight to 1am continuing ‘yesterday’s work, but that counted for only some of this, so tonight between about 10:45 and midnight, I wrote 3,223 words.
I didn’t make it to 30,000 yet, so I’m still not caught up where I wanted to be, but do you see that Words Per Day To Finish On Time? 1,768. Easy. I can do that with no problem!
Now, it is worth mentioning that, though I finally killed someone, I still haven’t worked out who else dies and who the killer is or why they are the killer… BUT I’ve had a few people offer to help me out so HOPEFULLY I can get this sorted out soon.
How are you guys doing? Hopefully on a roll like I am!
Yesterday I swore I would reach 30,000 words, but I struggled to decide who to be my first person killed. I also keep struggling with who I want to be the killer, but I think I have decided that now. BUT I did kill someone finally. My characters are just about to discover that this person has been killed, but I DID IT!
As I mentioned, I struggled all day just trying to decide where to go next. I let my sister read the story and give suggestions, but she was bored by it (she’s fifteen and I’m aiming for an adult audience, so I’m not shocked). Because of this, I didn’t write anywhere near what I needed to reach 30,000 today.
However, the way I see it, 2,900 words is still a step forward. My ‘words per day to finish on time’ is down below 2,000 words now, and the days I ACTUALLY get some writing done, I almost always write more than that, so honestly, this is still good news.
I’m still on track to finish on time. I may be slightly behind ALL THE WAY TO THE END, but I’m going to get there one way or another, and as long as how much I write is a bigger number than the ‘words per day to finish on time’ says I require, I’m not that worried.
I’m so mad! I planned to write 5k today, that was my plan, but then I didn’t get home until about 4:30pm and then I forgot tonight was Fantastic Beasts and Where To Find Them so I didn’t get home AGAIN until around 11pm, so I had like NO writing time today.
Tomorrow I’m staying home all day and I’m going to reach 30,000 words. That’s it. I’m GOING to do it. All plans cancelled (not that I had any), not going anywhere. Staying home. Writing NaNoWriMo.
I need to get ahead, because I have my final paper for one of my classes due on the 27th, so I NEED at least two days to work on that where I won’t be able to write ANY NaNoWriMo and that close to the end, I cannot fall behind further, I need a BUMPER!
So yeah. Writing. Tomorrow. DOING IT!